Not finished with this…
an open heart seems to be a broken mess.
no happiness,nor sorrow.
stay still,frozen in time.
forget my feelings.
hidden from the ones i love.
selfishness never looked so pretty.
never ready for you to find
the feelings that I secretly have.
introduce me as a best friends that’s all I seem to be.
without feelings to share with me.
this is twice now…
feelings, contentions built.
tortured prisoner from this ground.
I feel not suited for this crown.
glorious winter season,on the surface it may seem.
what bittersweet symphany this is.
to have a mask in the mists.
two faces for them to see.
they see what they must in order to live.
this sadness tends to bring to one indeed.
I f the crown fits.
they say let it be.
oh so this entitles happiness to me?
trapped within her “happiness”
treat me like a queen she pleads.
her heart is empty yet again.
searching,searching,searching her life is what it is.
hoping of better dreams or even realities within.
friendship,love and peace is another plead she seem to need.
plans have not succeed,this shattered mirror
unveals the truth without decieved.
deception brings this mask to wear.
so they wont see this broken mess.
meow
hello 2012!!!!
I haven’t seen you in years and you tend to call when you are drunk.excuse me but no father I do not want to speak with you,I hate how you get.I dislike talking on the phone anyways.I am a broken masterpiece that is somewhat getting fixed piece by piece I need time for this to unfold.give me a little more time to explore.the past years I’ve made mistakes and and it’s helped me to grow so I am growing as a person.somewhat fell for someone this year but if i did why was it so easy to forget after it was done?then liked someone else right after..boys will be boys and girls will be girls…as It is the first day of the year maybe things will change maybe for the good or for the bad whatever happens it’s just another page to a story unfolded. hmm i might have a date today…lol. if i call it that.lol. Work has been pretty great and now that I will be working at Disneyland I am sooo happy for opportunities ahead of me..
just simply me, loves adventures and music.... rather live in a fairy tale then the real world....
